Hello! My name is Adrian Manuel. I studied English and Creative Writing at Northern Arizona University (my parents are still recovering). I am currently working as a freelance writer and I manage this blog in between projects (again, still recovering).
Adrian Vs. The World started in college – that time of joyous possibility coupled with periods of relentless self-doubt. College has a way of magnifying our anxieties. I had peers who joked whether I was gonna spend the rest of my largely unemployed life writing sonnets (I’ve written a few). I had roommates who compared the thickness of their math and science textbooks to the literature I was required to read (the intellectual equivalent of a dick-measuring competition). I had relatives pressing me about what I could possibly do with an English education. Even a doctor of mine (whom I sought for back pain brought on by anxiety) asked what I was studying and when I said English, he looked up, brows furrowed, and asked how’s that working out?
Creative Arts majors know exactly what I’m talking about, being knocked on and talked down to. This constant feeling like you’re against the world. As if our insecurities don’t provide enough resistance as it is. Uncertainty comes in the form of smiles and flimsy advice from people who aren’t in it the same as you. Your so-called “support” system telling you to pursue this as a hobby and to do something practical. People tell you how hard it is to be a creative yet no one seems to understand how hard it is for us not to be.
It’s always been a fight to validate and express myself. It feels that way now and I know that won’t change. I suppose that’s why this desk and this chair is starting to feel like home. Despite all odds, I write. Knowing I shouldn’t, being told I couldn’t, and I write. It’s me versus the world.